A brief summery to my life

My names Gemma Dunbar Blackwood, I've only recently started using my middle name because in the past I was embarrassed by it but have since come to love it.
I'm twenty two years of age and I can't wait to be twenty three...Growing old doesn't scare me, like others my age..I think I got this attitude from my mum...She's fifty seven and still goes out drinking with all her (younger) friends. She split up with the love of her life nearly 10 year's ago now and has remained single for the most part since, she doesn't care for relationships..She's always saying she has her kids, a roof over her head and money coming in...Why does she need a man? I love and admire her more then anybody.
My father is only a year younger then my mum but if you were to see him in the street you'd swear he was at least ten year's older. He's an unemployed alcoholic. I miss the days where he would draw for me and play Bon Jovi really loudly just to make me smile..But those are over and I accept that..I've spent the past ten year's trying to "save" him but I'm starting to give up and a part of myself hates that...But a bigger part of me is realising I need to start taking care of myself and not just him. I love him, don't get me wrong..But I wouldn't be surprised if I walked into his house to find him dead..And when that day comes..I don't know whether I'll be relieved or upset...or both.
Anyway that's enough about my parents.
I've been unemployed for nearly 18 months now and it's the most frustrating thing ever, I get £100 to live on a fortnight, I'm alot luckier then some at the moment as I live with my mum and she only asks for £10 rent a week...I will do pretty much anything at the moment for money..
Prostitution runs in the family...My nan..Not my mum haha.
I own an Alaskan Malamute/Siberian Husky mix called Zeus, he's only a year old and he's my baby boy..I talk about him like people do about their kids.
That's enough for tonight..I'm off to my friend's house for films and alcohol. Win.

Laterzzz